Thursday, March 23, 2017

Miscarriage

I really don't know how to start this post, and really I debated even writing one. But as time goes by I keep thinking about writing a post. I keep thinking about what happened. And I guess I just can't let it go. I had a miscarriage on January 17th, 2017. I had only known about the pregnancy for 2 days, and I was already 6 weeks along.
Before all this happened, I had been having SUPER irregular periods. Cycles lasting anywhere from 25 days to 45 days, they were nuts and so unpredictable. I had wanted to get pregnant again soon after having Emilio, but that's when we decided to renew our vows. We had put getting pregnant on hold, but as the wedding date drew closer, we kinda just let nature do it's thing. I didn't even really know when I could get pregnant since my periods where off the wall, so it was really by chance that we conceived at the end.
We were so excited, so incredibly happy. At one point we even considered telling
 everyone we were expecting at our wedding reception. We were low key making plans for this tiny baby already. I found out I was pregnant on a Sunday and on Tuesday morning that came to an end. It wasn't anything dramatic. I woke up as I usually do to get the kids ready for school, and I suddenly felt like a tiny gush of something, obviously I was instantly alarmed, just because I'm super paranoid by nature. I go to the restroom and I see blood. My heart sank and I just started to cry. I knew I had miscarried, there was no doubt in my mind. Art stayed optimistic, reminding me it could be implantation bleeding, but I already knew. The blood was dark, and it was not spotting by any means.  I called my OB office, they had me come in that day for a blood draw, the next day they called and told me my HCG levels and told me to come back the following day for a second draw. I already knew tho, there was no way I was still pregnant, the bleeding never stopped. I still went in for the second draw, and the following day they confirmed my levels had dropped. It was official, I was no longer pregnant.
I still don't know if I'm under reacting or over reacting. I had never gone threw something like this. I know I miscarried early and honestly with the jacked up periods I was having, if I would have waited 2 more days to test, I probably never would have known. But it still hurts, it makes me sad and I defiantly cried about it. I cried about what it could have been. This baby would have had Emilio's exact same birthday. The memories we would have had. It would have been so amazing.
I didn't want to talk about it, because some people go threw miscarriages when they are 3,4 ,5 months along if not more. Mine was so early, and it hurt so bad, I can't imagine the pain of losing a baby who  was that far along,  a baby that I have heard the heart of, a baby that I have felt kick, a baby of which I know the gender and gave a name to. I guess, I was worried about upsetting someone who may have suffered a greater loss then me. 
Only a few close family members know about our miscarriage, but I think its time for me to let it out into the universe. Let me really heal. 


Friday, January 6, 2017

Our Engagement shoot

I am so excited to share our engagement photos with you all. I absolutely love how they came out! I mean, of course they came out gorgeous! Our photos where done by our cousin -in- law Perla. This chica is AH-MAZING!
We usually go with a very earthy, desert landscape; but this time we wanted to try something new. Well, Art wanted to try something new is what I should say. He had the idea of us shooting in Downtown Phoenix. As much as I loved the idea, I wasn't sold on it. I like consistency, and if something works why change it. (amiright ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )  Well, we went with his idea and hoped for the best. 
BEST IDEA EVER
I literally just sit and look at them all the time, I just cant get enough! 
Ok, well I hope y'all enjoy them as much as I do <3
















Thank you so much for the photos Perla, your the best!

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Stressed.

Well,
Ive managed to go threw my whole wedding planning experiance without blogging about it. 
All I can say is that it went by fast, we really under estimated EVERYTHING. We are officially 30 days out, and we still have so much to do. Like all those little details really add up. Its crazy!
Kinda sucks that Im entering 2017, feeling exactly like 2016.  SUPER STRESSED. 
As excited as I am to be going threw this journey, I really just want it to end already. Im seriously so over it.  Im ready to get rid of the stress, this anxiety and most importantly, Im ready to not be broke. 

Keeping this downer post short for y'all.
But I will end it with a photo from our engagement shoot.


Friday, May 27, 2016

Wedding Season is upon us

Alright guys, so it is true! 
Wedding season is upon us. This is particularly exciting for me because my husband and I have decided to get remarried!!!! We have been civially married for whats going to be 4 years, this year. 
I honestly can even believe this is happening. But, it is most definatly happening, and its happening fast. 
We have a date!! February 4th, 2017.  

I feel like there are a million things that I should be doing. I originally had a rather small wedding in mind. I wasn't expecting to have a bridal party, a professional photographer or a florist. Now its looking like Ill be having all three. 
Everything is adding up fast, and to be honest, I don't know how were going to be able to afford all this. Its gonna take a lot of budgeting and a lot of planning to pull this off. 

Well, wish us luck! 
and with that, I leave y'all with a couple of photos from our wedding in 2012
xoxo, yuri




Friday, April 1, 2016

Worst blogger in the history of blogging



Well, here I am again, attempting to blog. I don't know that it is about it, but blogging is hard!
I tried blogging while I was pregnant and after I had the baby. Now, here I am, almost 7 months later attempting to blog yet again. 
Lets se how this works out. 

If you don't already follow me and know who I am, My name is Yuri. I am a twenty something year old mother of 3 boys. Yup, all boys. 
I am happily married, to my best friend and we live in sunny Arizona. 
I hope you stick around to see where this blogging adventure takes us. 
xoxo, Yuri 



 
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